at an impasse

Man in black: But if there can be no arrangement, then we are at an impasse.
Vizzini: I'm afraid so. I can't compete with you physically, and you're no match for my brains.

i'm currently not sure what to do regarding the shawl i'm knitting... was knitting, whatever. i was reminded of the princess bride quote above when thinking about my shawl situation. this project has definitely beaten my giant and bested my spaniard...

it would still be pretty, if finished. it's not going to be finished by the prospective deadline, unless by some random act of time travel.... there are some mistakes within the lacework, but none that the casual observer would be able to detect.

oh! and i just found out that the lace i'm using is potentially 'cobweb laceweight.' ARE YOU FRAKKING SERIOUS?!? sweet. awesome. that's just great. wait... how insane was i to start this? i feel like pulling 'a charlie brown', tossing back my head and screaming "UGGGGHHH!" well, maybe that is a bit dramatic... but it IS frustrating...

now is the time when i have to remember that it's just yarn -- slow it down, now: it's. just. yarn. just breathe, 'kay?

i should have never let myself fall in love with it at the yarn store... but it was a beautiful colorway and incredibly soft... and i spent far too much time over a period of a few months scouting out the perfect pattern. i then spent $10 on said pattern, something i've never done before.

i'm not going to frog it... i mean, would YOU rip out 200 yards of cobweb lace? i enjoy fixing mistakes and solving problems. i just kind of have a knack for trying to 'make it right,' though i think my motto for this project is going to be 'just make it work, regardless of mistakes.'

so where am i right now? chart c (ie: the third chart in a set of nine[!]), at the part where you have to increase sixteen stitches within the double yarn-over from the previous row... yeah, i've had seven years of yarn experience so far and even i don't know how to pull this one off... and the fact that i have to attach two pages together in landscape layout just to read across the chart is frustrating too. i'm going to have to find an easier way to focus on whatever row i'm knitting.

ps - if you've made it this far, congrats. thanks for sticking with me. :) i'm posting the rss feed of facebook for my craft blog now, instead of the curvykristen blog. i'll still be writing the curvykristen blog on my weight-loss endeavors, but i'm currently struggling with some heavy stuff (no pun intended) and i'd like writing that blog to be more of an outlet for me... and not get so much 'publicity.' although there may be many crafting terms that appear, there's usually a deeper meaning / understanding within the words -- i always feel that there's a lesson to be learned.